Embracing the Elephant

Buddhists believe that one's waking mind is like a rampaging elephant: the more you try to control it, the more it runs wild. Naturally, mine has been running amok since I signed up for the Half. My OCD plays everything now in a template based on that race. That's not bad if I'm doing a run and trying to imagine how good it will feel to cross the finish line, but it's very intrusive if I'm trying to fall asleep. But I know the more one tries to control something, the worse it gets, so I am trying to "embrace the elephant", just as I will embrace the pain of training and the pain of racing. I have to take it all as a package. Easily said, I know. Living it will be another matter.